LoNg tImE No wRiTe
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Yeah i know that i have not written in a long time... The reason why i am writing now is because i am in a really bad mood!!! I really need to pour my feelings to someone or something... Let me tell you what ACTUALLY happened.... Okay the tv in the hall is being used by my grandfather... He is watching animal planet on the tv... The tv in my mother's room is NOT being used at all... Okay so what is the TV there for in the first place if she is not even watching it???!!! She does not want to let me see my favourite show... HEROES season 3!!! So damn Fucked up leh!!! Really pissed me off like hell!!! The reason why i cannot watch the tv is because my step-father is studying for his driving license test... SO WHAT?! that is not my problem!!!! I know i am selfish lah. But i really want to watch the tv show!!! Man i really felt like punching her face you know!!! i know i am being too harsh but i really really felt like punching his and her face!!! I mean if you are not going to watch the tv than why keep it in your room???????!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even as i am writing this she is standing beside me in the hall!!!! I feel like kicking her and her husband... I don't care who reads this post... Be it my relatives or my friends. Tell my mother about it... I don't care about it at all... It is my feelings and i have the rights to write it wherever i want!!!! Yeah some of you may think i am being childish. But when you are in my position you will know how it will feels... It feels like my mother and i have become more distant ever since she separated from my father... I really wish that my broken family could be back together... But i know that it will never happen. T T(tears)... I am what i am now because of the sudden separation in my family... I used to love my father a lot... But now i hate him to the core... He totally sucks... I wish he would just disappear from the world... I wish everybody will perish from the world... I really want some peace in my life... FUCK OFF EVERYBODY!!! LET ME HAVE SOME PEACE IN LIFE!!! I WANT TO BE ALONE!!! STRANDED TO THE WHOLE WORLD MYSELF!!! i really have no peace in my life... I used to think that god was testing me by giving me all these unhappiness... A few months ago i realized that it was not true... The truth is that whatever is happening to us is because of what we do... In my case i am what i am now because of my parents... Till they separated i have never failed my math before you know?! After their separation i failed my math by 2-3 marks and it got worst as the years passed... I was beginning to feel like a total loser... My hopes and dreams were crashed... I started getting ugly... uglier... and now the ugliest... i have become totally lazy, fat, clumsy and most of all UGLY... I am the ugliest person that you can see... I am ugly both physically and mentally... It the truth... Like said... The truth always hurts... It really hurts but i can accept the truth unlike some people... I feel like the world is going to end soon and i dont know why but it feels like it... I wish to be a good person before i die... I want to be of use to someone... I really want to be of use to someone... I really wish... Wish... I just want to feel complete before i die... Just once... I want to feel proud of myself just once... Till now when i look at the mirror i feel like breaking it... Thinking why i am so hideous... so incomplete... So... so... So....
Intro.
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Me.
Commonwealth Secondary School
4_7
Pieces
24021993
Loves.
music
my Ninken
blog skin designing
my Sharingan techniques
my Chidori
my Icha-icha collection XD
Hates.
racism
backstabbers
liars
server down
copycats
stealers
Wishes.
never ending love
Apple IPhone
happiness
an electric guitar
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Jonathan Ng
APA
friend
friend
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Credits.
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